Those one on one conversations can be intimidating. Especially when you are talking to yourself.
Recently, I have been doing a lot of reflecting. Not surprisingly, I am approaching a new landscape in my life. My youngest child will enter college in the fall. That reality challenges me to ask myself what I anticipate on the horizon. What paths do I see luring me? Where will they lead?
So many voices beckon. I gaze in their direction, surveying all that I see. But this isn’t about them. It’s about me. And how the paths I choose may join up with other ones leading to roads that aren’t yet paved. And meeting people whose paths I have yet to cross.
So instead of anticipating a vision of the big picture to emerge at any moment, I will keep walking. Slowly. I am giving myself permission to be at peace with not having answers right now. Eventually God will reveal where I am headed. Maybe the answers will be loud moments of epiphany or maybe they will be revealed during a quiet stroll into my “place.” Regardless, God is already ahead preparing the way.
“Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track.” Proverbs 3:5-6.
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Amen Stephanie. So beautifully spoken. Blessings.
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Paula Kiger says
It’s so so hard to give ourselves permission not to have the answers. Thank you for sharing.
I would so enjoy being at peace – even without all the answers! I’m doing better but it is a challenge! Hope you enjoy the roads traveled during this journey and season!
There have been times when the anxiety clenches it’s grip. I am learning to rest in the truth that revelation happened in those moments and will happen again.